Take a moment, close your eyes, and think of what would make you happy in this moment. Not what you need in the future. That sets the bar too high. Just claim what would bring you joy in present time, and then do it. You will find that when you feed your desires in the moment, pleasing others becomes automatic without feelings of responsibility of this is what I "need" to do.
Recently I ventured into the mountains with my dearest friends to cut down a 13' holiday tree. (You can come and see it at the holiday party on December 27th.) Filled with our joyous intentions the day became magical. It was the day before the cold and snow hit Denver. We had sun, mild temperatures, speed in locating our trees, and strong men to drag them off the mountain. We even met delightful mountain people at lunch who shared their food with us at a Thai restaurant. Duck and calamari. Yum!
I implore you to find what makes you happy and then do it. The rest of the season will fall into place, as will you.
With a Smile from my Heart,